Is been a while since I’ve written, I do apologize. Today I decided to write again, I want to tell my story, so if I give up it will never happen. I had to read my own blogs to see where I left off, but I will now continue……
Wow, I left off telling about my family! Talk about blessings!!! As Bob and I settled into a wonderful marriage, I was also trying to figure out how to be a mom. Man, jumping right in there with both feet was something, but definitely worth doing again.
There was some trials as I was not a great mom to start with. I didn’t get the hang of disciplining Miranda right away, I was very hard on her, and I am ashamed to admit, even mildly abusive. I went to our Bishop at the time to ask how to change my life and actions so that I didn’t destroy our happy little family. I really tried hard to overcome my anger, and life was getting much better.
Miranda suffered through those earlier years, but she was a great help to me as I began to experience the seizures and voices again. I had several seizures and taught her how to help me. Her and Bob really watched out for me and we learned how to deal with it all. As I struggled with my feelings and illness, I talked to my therapists and family about why I couldn’t really get it under control, eventually I learned a better way to deal with my anger and the stress of motherhood became a gift.
Bob and I have always had a great marriage and our love grows every day. Miranda and I have had a beautiful relationship and I will always cherish her beauty and the amazing person she is. I am blessed.
Thanks for reading, Love, Heather